wish

what I know and desire
exists if I allow it to breathe
but to strangle myself
end the life I wish for
to do this I must first convince myself
it is for the best, the greater good
and my hands
could have the power
wrestle with
the force of these feelings
victory

I keep thinking it is possible
and still believe it is

and tonight
emotion I thought had little life
wrenched tears from these eyes
surprised me
I, wiping away salt

determined, aching